Quia amasti me, fecisti me amabilem.

In loving me, You made me lovable -St. Augustine
Last night I wasn't quite ready to go to bed, so I got a book that David had recently bought that I was intending to read and went and sat on the couch with Jacob and Katie. I opened the book, The Furious Longing of God by Brennan Manning. Yeah, I know, Manning is amazing, and pretty much the cutest old man ever, I wish he and I were BFFs. I started reading this book and learned maybe the most significant thing I've learned this year.
Mission Year- Love God. Love People. Nothing else matters. True, yeah? No, totally, its so important to love God, and it's so important to love people, the two commandment's Christ left us with before leaving this earth. I've been operating on that notion for the last, oh I dont know, atleast 2 years.
That nothing else matters, isn't quite accurate for me. What matters is how much God loves me. You guys, really, its huge the amount of love God, THE God of the universe, who made the stars, who made the oceans, who made the mountains and prairies, loves me. Me, Meredith Hope Layne, a sinner, a big sinner, a lowly creature who's beauty and longevity is minimal and pale next to the beauty of the world. And as beautiful as our world is, as majestic as the earth can be at times is nothing at all in comparison to God's Kingdom. And for me, he left that Kingdom. He left perfection, came to earth, put on the limitation of human skin and died, because that's what he had to do in order for me to be with him forever. I was seperated from him because of my sin, my humanity, and he died to be with me. I am so cherished and loved. And I can tell you without a doubt that you are too. It's not for one person alone. That love, which is huge, furious, all encompassing is for you and I. For anyone who chooses it.
I choose it. I choose to be loved by God, by my King. The Redeemer of my soul and the lover of my heart.
"In human beings, love is a quality, a high-praised virtue; in God, love is His identity." -Brennan Manning
That is so true. I am virtuous if I love God, if I love others, IF I love, I a quality. I love God, I love people, I am a good person. But it matters so much more that God loves me. There is no question of IF God loves, He is love, He has always loved you, He will always love you. There is no question.
I read the whole book, one after the other my roommates went to bed, and I sat in the living room reading, and the farthest from alone I have ever been, because I am in God, and He is in me. I am loved so much that I can't even stand in it, all I can do in the weight of it is fall to my knees, raise my hands in surrender and acceptance and declare "I am Yours! You are mine, and I am Yours!"
Come now, My love. My lovely one, come.
For you, the winter has passed,the snows are over and gone,the flowers appear in the land, the season of joyful songs has come.
The Cooing of the turtle dove is hear in our land.
Come now, My love. My lovely one, come.
Let Me see your face. And let Me hear your voice,for your voice is sweet,and your face is beautiful.
Comenow, My love, My lovely one, come.Song of Songs 2:10-14

About time i think

So, I've had my fair share of blogs. One might say I'm a bit unable to stick to one blog. It is true that I get bored easily.

Anyway, will do my best to stick to this one.